I was changed (2)

I meet some guys from internet, they add me and say want to be my Master at first, after several chat in Msn/Skype, I figure out they are not real Master. Then my bad practice will come out. I will pretend nothing happen and ask will change our position from slave to become his Master. At last all they will thirst for accept it and told me the real idea of them.....

Actually I don't mind they are slave or Master but I really mind they are not sincerely. Why lie to me? Do you know it was so hurt for a slave to get a fake hope. Every time I get high and hard when I think I meet a real Master and told them whatever I need, and send them all my picture and video, show him my heartfelt wishes, but only get disappointed at last.

Due to I'm slave too, I understand how a slave desire for a Master. In past, I will do them a favour, will enslave them one or two times. And I trust them will repay me once to enslave me back initiatively. However they won't....

I build my dungeon, buy a lot of tools which seem like not for myself but for them. Every time after we play, I provide bathroom, towels, drink, food and services. But I got nothing back.....

I will think that what they need, and do that what they hope. Why I need to do that? Because I'm too naive and too simple, still fantasy that we are same, we are family, we are a special group of people and need to help each other. They won't help me back and only ask for more and more and more.

I like to play with foreigner because in my mind, they are very straightforward, Master is Master, slave is slave, confirm play will play, otherwise will say no.

But now I got changed, I don't believe it anymore! Maybe some of them live in Hong Kong for long times, they seem to assimilate by chinese, no such honest but false.

I don't want to be an idiot anymore, I write "100% slave" in my facebook cover and status out "I'm slave" in my Skype/msn. However still have slave to add me, because they want me to intro some Master to them. In past, I will give them without any hesitation. However after some Master complain, I know that I need to protect my Master.

Yes I still will intro some Master to slave but at least you need to give me your face pictures and status that I forward to my Master. Then he want to find you or not which not my control and I can't give you my Master cell phone and contact without his permit.

By the way, I success my hope once a time in Taiwan and once a time in Hong Kong, this year I went to Taiwan for fun, I meet a guy who are slave, I play him two times. After our second time fun, he ask me to borrow my ropes, actually I misunderstanding he need me to give him my ropes, anyway I need to back Hong Kong. So I don't mind to give those to him. When he got the ropes, he whispers to tell me, he want to tie me up. Yes he really done that and then caress me for awhile, although I didn't cum but I'm super high and happy in fact.

I ask him why he done that to me, the answer was "I think you travel so long to Taiwan, and you also are slave, at least need a repay". Actually my tears around my eyes at once, and I also want to give him something to commemorate. Then I leave him a Lycra Spiderman costumes because he wear it was super good fits. And I promise next time to Taiwan will find him again if he don't mind.

And the other time was an Indian who worked in Hong Kong. We met in social networking, he told me he was a 50/50 and don't mind to enslave me but he don't know how to tie, so need me to teach him. Then I send him some link and videos to show him how to tie. We also met at my playroom and teach him how to tie and have our first fun. After a week, he found me again and I just think that he wanted to bondage him, so we still met in my playroom. But come out he told me he want to tie me, I feel very surprise that he really try to follow my videos and link to learn how to tie. And then we are being a bondage playmate over a year till he back to USA.

I was changed (1)

When my Taiwan's Man (my lover/my Master) was gone, I was changed, my eyes were opened and my mind was clear. I can figure out who are my friend and who just using me to make him happy but without mercy...

When the time his gone, at the same time, a Taiwan's friend message me to interrogate last time we play. His body got hurt and need to visit doctor after we play. I feel very sorry about it and make an apology, however he didn't accept and haunted me for several days. Although I busy to prepare the funeral, although I have not enough time to sleep, I still follow his request to send him whatever he need. Cause I treat him as my best friend and really feel sorry about his hurt.

Actually last play, not only he and me but have another 3 guys there. My friend and I slave him. How about the remaining 2 guys do??? He told me that one of them when seeing him got hurt has shaking head to feel us very unduly. Why him didn't stop us and give us some signal to stop?? The true is they are lover, someone who feels belongs to him only but not, so one of them jealous and angry, the other needs to pacify him. However he didn't blame them, his reason is they didn't play him but we did..... But I know the real reason was he wants to keep the good relationship with them, because he needs to use his place and his help in future.

I don't want to explain anything, when he told me his body got hurt that is a fact. I need to take that's my sins, although at the same day, he didn't only play with me, also have play at night time, although his hurt not really come from my hands but I have play and didn't stop that's my fault. And not only he confirm is my wrong, he told me that when he discuss with some friend about me those agree I'm not correct. So I'm guilt and nothing need or can to say.

In this case, I really find out that who are my friend, that should not be the guy only told him he has shaking his head and feel unduly of us but do nothing, he really a big mouth guy.

After the play, I ask them to lunch together, but due to the big mouth guy still angry and didn't join us. I don't think that is a right and good behavior. Instead to do his lover a favour, this is selfish and impolite attitude to loss the friendship. Yes, he is my first one to unfriend from facebook after the day.

However the story was not end.... Same month I need to travel to Taiwan. Nearly the day of my travel, he message me again says he know that I will travel to Taiwan to visit his best friend. He will not tell his best friend about I hurt him. But he was very worried that I will hurt his best friend when we play....

Oh my god! That should be to intimidate to warn me don't come to find his friend. But he didn't know his friend have prepare everything and we need to stay together in 3days, how do I ask him to cancel everything?! God will help for it, due to some reason, we cancel the stay and within the trip I keep my promise to stay away his best friend.

In that moment, really make me feeling worried and I really don't know why I will hurt his friend. Although we play, I will be slave of his friend instead a Master. I don't think he is wrong, because he is protected his friend to avoid my hurt. Just a wrong timing anyway, his message send to me after I post a SM photo in Facebook which make me associate that he didn't want me to feel happy at that time.

By the way, his warning occur effect, I give up to immigrant to Taiwan. He let me know everywhere is the same and that's why I didn't join the Gay Parade in this year. And I still remember don't go to bother his best friend anymore.